plz excuse the mess though unseen be prepared for once i begin to express myself w/o any care there will be no end and maybe then you'll begin to understand the end of my madness...never beginning clear for that is buried in a segment of my history....surpressed by your love that was loyal conditionally ...
my love is too thick i kno this for as i try to feed you....*airplanes noises and gestures*...you get lost in the distractions i serve as manner to get close to you.....you are searching simply for your own entertainment...dont proclaim anyless for your words are deafened by your actions....what?! ....what?!! i can't hear you...ohhh...snap here comes the maddness
and maybe this is just a reflection for your reality is what you think and maybe if i hadnt thought tha tyou would stop loving me...the beautiful comfort that wrapped me in a night would not be so lost to m i wouldnt be able to distinguish it from hate if the 2 stood beofre me....maybe if i hadnt projected the distance you wouldnt have walked away....but dont you know that the only way i know how to love....push....push back...push....push back....push...silence.....PUSH....tears!...ipush to learn....i push to see how far your willing to last for me and everytime i push and see you run away i know...it wasnt real .....
so everytime i share my love only to have left naked alone in the night sky i must fall again and start from the begining...mama what is love?...how do you know u love someone...is love real.....does it hurt...is it heavy.....
but with each fall the thickness of my love feels nothing surrond by the numbness of misunderstanding.....there is no feeling...no concept of love....
so as i have poured out my all to you....watched you walk away .....all im left with is this mess....
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